Clarissa, what is it like for you to play in front of thousands of people?
It’s a feeling that I’ve been looking for all of my life – this adrenaline rush, this sense of being truly alive. I’m not an adrenaline junkie in the conventional sense, but when it comes to live performances, I am one a hundred percent. I’m almost addicted to it, and the bigger the audience, the more amazing it all becomes. Freddie Mercury once said something like: “When you know you have the audience’s attention, you can’t make mistakes any more.” I’ve already had that feeling a few times in my life – and that’s when I realise that all the hard work really pays off.
Would you describe yourself more as a nervous wreck or the life of the party on stage?
Hopefully neither. I’m always a bit wired, in a positive sense, since I naturally want to put on a good show. Every concert hall is different, and we artists are often tired or full of adrenaline. All that affects how I feel. In general, I wouldn’t describe myself as someone who puts themselves centre stage. For me it is more like a very intimate moment between me, the audience and the orchestra. It just feels like home.
Do you have a special ritual you do before going on stage?
Yes, I do, actually. I take a few hours before the performance to do my make-up. This may seem banal, but it calms my nerves and helps me concentrate on the little details: to just breathe and enjoy the process of getting ready for the concert. If I’m nervous before a concert, my hands shake a bit. But as soon as I start putting on my make-up, it’s all fine.
What things should definitely always be available backstage?
A steamer for my clothes! I’m on the road a lot and there’s always plenty of stuff in my bag, so my clothes can get a bit creased. That’s why I’m really happy when there’s a clothes steamer backstage.
And on stage: Who would you like to perform with and why?
There are so many people I look up to. I’ve already had the opportunity to play with some of my greatest idols. But what I would really like is to play with my mentor Antje Weithaas, who is an incredible chamber musician.
What role does the violin play in your life?
I am an only child, so I definitely see my violin as a kind of constant companion in my life. It is simply the most important thing for me. We have are very close relationship and practise together every day. My current violin has a beautiful grain. It was only recently made and finished for me. I feel very privileged to be able to play it. I would say our relationship is growing: I am developing as a violinist, and it – or rather, he – is growing as a violin. Together, we are discovering wonderful concert halls and pieces.
Why do you say “he”? Is your violin male?
(laughs) “He” has a particularly clear sound in his own way. I’ve played other violins and have often sensed more feminine aspects in them: very high notes, very beautiful, clear sounds. My current violin feels a bit more cool and laid back, so I think of it more as a he.
Clarissa Bevilacqua at the Isarphilharmonie
Text: Maria Zimmerer
